Change of Pace

So last night I had a bit of a pity-party for myself. Chris had fallen asleep, and all of a sudden all I could think about was how many people close to me forgot my birthday. Before I knew it, I was in tears. And then I was mad at myself for being upset, which made me cry more. Stupid… I know. I tell you all that to say this: God is SO COOL. I’m laying there thinking about those who forgot me rather than thinking about He who always remembers me. I felt Jesus tell me, “I remember you. I remember you every day, in every thing that you do. I know the number of hairs on your head, the number of breathes that you take… I know what you feel before you feel it.”

Then I heard Him say that I chose the wrong book to read yesterday. I do need to read Chasing Daylight-it’s incredible from what I have read so far- but right now I should be concentrating on facing my giants (insecurity, worry, lack of faith). So what better book to read right now than Facing Your Giants by Max Lucado?! I sat down to read the first chapter today and finally felt something. For weeks I have really just felt like I was going through the motions, longing for a breakthrough… I think I finally found it. After just reading the first chapter, I teared up. I realized that this book is really going to rock my world and help me break free from these things I have been fighting for years.

I’ll keep you updated on how it’s going.