Change of Plans

After MUCH prayer, much conversation, many sleepless nights, a daycare fiasco, and laying it all down before God, we have decided that I will stay at home with the baby rather than pursue certification this summer. It has been a difficult decision. It’s so hard to decipher feelings and emotions from God’s will for our lives. The LRCE program seemed like such an obvious choice by the wisdom of man- I had blown the tests out of the water, interviewed well, gotten accepted and even had enough extra money to pay tuition. Once I finished it, I would be set for life in the teaching realm… and teachers in EBRP are even rumored to be getting a pay raise this year! But no matter what people think or say, and no matter how financially secure we could have been, I am to rely on God’s power, not man’s wisdom (1 Cor. 2:5).

I LOVE teaching and especially love the kids. I do feel that God put me back into the classroom this year for a reason. Maybe it was to touch some little lives, or reignite the passion in me for inner city kids… Whatever the reason, I loved every minute of it and feel so blessed to have been able to do it. I still do feel called to teaching as a career, but right now I also know I am not supposed to be a career mom during this season of my life.

One of my favorite quotes is by an amazing author, Erwin McManus: “When you fear God and nothing else, you discover the freedom to pursue great adventure.” I could fear what people will think, or that we won’t have enough money to make ends meet, or a thousand other things associated with this decision. But today I stand fearing God and Him alone, knowing that I am living in His will and not for the praises of men. I can’t wait to see the adventure God has in store for me and my family!